I've been unhappy...
For years I have been unhappy and uncomfortable with what I’ve called my work. My discomfort has been like a pebble in my shoe, which I’ve been carrying around everywhere with me. A constant nagging feeling that has consumed so much of my headspace and life. It’s affected every part of my life including my relationships with family, friends, and myself.
And so over the past few weeks I quit my work and will be pursuing a new direction.
I’m going freelance, self-employed, or whatever you want to call it. I’m embarking on a journey of finding ways to support my life and family that do not involve committing 40 hours of my weeks to someone else’s company, mission, projects, way of working, or view of the world. The financial trade offs and “stability” of this arrangement are not worth it at the moment.
I’m going to pursue projects that interest and energize me, that I am uniquely skilled to do, and can support my life.
Is it guaranteed to work? No. But I am willing to do whatever it takes to pursue this journey for as long as possible and self-fund until I figure it out. I’ve been inspired by countless others who have dared to change directions, eventually figured it out, and are living more meaningful lives.
To Hannah my wonderful wife, partner, and friend… thank you for your unwavering love, continuous support, and trust. I love you.
I look forward to having the space to write more consistently and more honestly here. As always thank you for reading.
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